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i dunno why i suddenly came back here to type my entry. i felt weird. especially listening to the mp3s on my computer now, courtesy of leonard. and alvin lin's blog.
after reading his blog, i dunno why but i felt sad. perhaps i felt sad for him. i dunno.
but his blog let me realised how much i missed huazhong.
honestly. i missed all my frens there. i missed the teachers there. i missed everyone else whom i know there. i missed the life there.
i have always been thinking whether not going back to hci is a good choice. while i dun regret it in some way, i regret it in another way too. sadly speaking. ya. my frens are all in hci. it's only with them when i have some kind of solace in them.
i miss huazhong. i miss huazhong.
syf 05. hcimb got a gold. i felt happy for them. but while during the syf i was reminded of the times where 2 years ago we were in preparation for syf. i remembered the dead boring night practices we had.
but i missed that now. if i had a chance to invent something. i guess i would invent the time machine. well. that happens becos i nv treasured my days in tchs.
argh. i hate myself.
on e other hand. vjc's not bad. i've been posted to 05s45. clarissa's class. i have made friends in the class. which is a good thing. but i doubt i'll ever find the happiness that i have experienced in tchs. mebbe it's becos tchs is a boy's school we talk anything under the sun.
i just cant let go of the past. that's y i always wanted to find excuses to go back HCI. be it visit the jnrs. trchrs. or wadeva. ya.
i hope things will turn out better.
renaissance 2005
.. yep that was the theme of TJC orientation this year. woohooooooooooooo and of cos, orientation rox!! =) i finally decided to update. lolx.
okay so first day, pretty dao lor. i mean... TJC, not HCI leh.. there's no one i really know in my group lor... hahaz. i was the onli TCHS guy in the OG la. hmmm... but weixuan and mona are both in my OG and CG! woohoo. but 1st day mah, tt's y din talk much (or rather, din even talk :S) lolx... of cos, 1st day will always end up with ice breakers and stuff. liew... we played some game called "da feng chui" (of cos in english, called "blow wind blow" .... cos Singapore's multi racial lor.. hahaz..;) ).. and i got the "honour" to stand in the middle of the group for 2 times. hahaz... then there were the dry games lor. which was pretty sian in my point of view! lala~... partly becos i din know anyone there la! tt's y was pretty lonely. hahaz. basically that's the first day la..
second day.. hmm..amazing race! woohoo. by this time i had already got to know and talk to the OGLs and OGMs... they are really nice! :D eh, wait, did i mention we had to walk from 1 end of east coast to the other end of east coast? well.. that was super sick lor. imagine walking pass like 30 + bbq pits. wahahaz.. and we got ourselves wet with the seawater while playing with the games... :S
third day......... WET games today. and i mean really wet. cos we had to play around with like puddles of liquid soap.. yucks manz. and the grass patch all of us were standing on had a frog! hahaz the girls were shrieking manz, and i got a shock of my life lor. cos it was juz behind me. then raul juz picked it up and threw it towards some other grass patches. and the frog hit the fence b4 dropping. aw..... oh ya. we still had to put up a skit as an OG for the Renaissance Night on fri... hmm... our grp tot of some show with a commercial in the middle. and i was selected as main actor for the commercial, guess y? hahaz. cos i was short! :S .... the shortest guy in the OG (which happened to be weixuan) was to act for the show la... den somehow the commercial was about the heneiken thingy... whereby there was this short lady trying to reach for the heneiken cans, and the tall guy blahblahblah. well, my grp reversed it, so the guy was supposed to be short, and i was like the 2nd shortest in my OG! argh.... hahaz. ok lor bo bian. anyway it was damn lame la... really, e.g. shelves. lolx... mona was the female actor for the commercial though and she's shorter than me. bleah. budden it was supposed to be some comedy, so in the end the height din really matter at all. :S got to know some of the ppl better through this skit since like they were the organising ppl... hmm....
fourth day...... sianz lor. lectures. these lectures were juz trying to let us see which subjects we are interested to take.. btw, tjc has this new system whereby in a class there will be diff ppl wif diff subject combinations.. hmm. my class has both science and arts students! :D hahaz... ok nvm, i'll stop digressing. anyway... there was this PDP exhibition in the afternoon in the whole school la.. yep. for those who don't know wad's PDP .... it's CCA or EP3 as we call it in TCHS. hmm... i signed up for some la.. wahahaz. and the trials are this week la..... hahaz. anyway after that almost the whole of the J1 cohort went to suntec city at night.... for MASS DANCE! woohoo.. we had been practising mass dance for like since monday. hahaz... it was around the fountain of wealth la. lolx... and it was pretty zai lor. i mean u see a few hundred ppl chionging for suntec at the same time. hahaz... and on the way back, thiam kee, koon yan, joshua and weixuan were talking crap la? den dunno for wad reason me and thiam kee started laughing non-stop. i tink it was abt koon yan's name la... hahaz btw i onli got to know his name (koon yan) onli on this day lo... :S hahaz..
fifth day.... heh heh. end of orientation! in the morning was lectures. so yep. did i mention anything abt ez-link cards? hmmm... TJ has this innovative system of attendance taking by tapping ur ez-link cards at the readers located in the school la.. hmm.. ok i'll stop digressing again. hahaz. yep. so my lectures ended pretty early at 10 plus cos all the others were Arts subjects and it was none of my business la. :D so in the end we had like 6 or 7 hours before the renaissance night @ 6pm. yep. tt was the case for those OGs whose items din get through the audition the day before. so me, han sheng, jianming and eugene headed back tchs la (for wadeva reason i dunno).. saw all the jnrs in band and went to talk to (mrs) jaya and ngsh.. hmm... ok, orientation night! it was called renaissance night... yep and it rox lor. we had this pageant contest thingy. and there were some who juz went up there for like 30 seconds of fame. wahaha. of cos there were presentations of the finalists of the performances tt went through the audition. yep... and to sum the whole orientation up, we had mass dance continuous lor... lolx.... i mean it was supposed to end at 10 but most of us went home at 11 plus? thanx to weixuan's mum, we had a lift to tampines interchange... or rather, ME.. cos thiam kee alighted at his home juz opposite tampines interchange...
to sum it up, orientation spirit was real high lor.. it was REALLY HIGH. i felt like i was going MAD or sth.. hahaz.. =)
hmm... tons of days not blogging. well, should try and summarise everything if i can. hahaz. so haf fun reading! ;)
my work experience: well. the work wasn't really that fantastic. as in it was boring boring and boring. hmm.. we got to switch jobs everytime a carton of boxes was done. at least that's for me though... well. the fun part was actually not the $$. but tt we got to make new friends there la. like weixiong, binghan and stuff. hmm. we even went to jason's house on one of the days to play ps2, mahjong, cards etc. =)
xmas: well. this yr my xmas was pretty lonely. as in i spent the whole day alone at home facing this comp. hahaz. but well. there was some turning pt which i shan't elaborate here la. but xmas eve was fun. we went over to leonard's house to play mahjong. me, junfan and weesiang. yep. so in the end i won ard 20 + bucks? ... cant believe it. but that's the truth. hahaz. we stayed till like 3 am plus. lolx... well. i heard frm chengleng rimmel gave me some note + candy. hahaz. feel like so paiseh. cos this yr i din write ani cards or bought ani presents. partly due to my laziness. =S .... and aniw. thanx cheryl (frm fuhua) for that card! =)
band gathering: hmmm.... wad should i say abt this. this yr was pretty innovative and simple. we bunked at seng hean's house. all 11 of us. me, alfred, jianming, jundar, bernard, darren, shawn, daniel, chengleng, seng hean and samuel. hahaz. nothing much la. juz mahjong. ps2.... yep. and then was the bbq. i'm getting the stomachache now frm eating too much uncooked food tt day. lol. there were tons of leftover la. not forgetting the bee hoon senghean's maid cooked for us that day. basically that was wad kept us full yea.... lolx. but the night was interesting. we began splashing water at each other at senghean's pool. den wad followed was like........ people kena pushed into the pool. like shawn. i did an evil thing. while they were like throwing shawn into the pool. i pushed bernard (one of the helpers) in as well. so i ended up laughing at both of them. damn lame sia... yep. and we played zhong ji mi ma??! hahaz. and also a last minute game - captain's ball (ok, i tot of that. yay. i feel honoured :D). and the captain's ball was damn fun la. senghean was treating it as though it was basketball. of cos, all these happened in the water la. :D i juz dunno y i kept laughing throughout the whole of this captain's ball game la.... =S
6.10 gathering: well. it was on the same day i came back frm seng hean's house. but luckily it was in the evening.... hmm. so i got like time to slp and stuff. hahaz. i went there late. ard 7.30pm or so. but basically at the start to be frank i was damn dao. even alex, isa blahblahblah knows that. hahaz. cant blame me mah. 2 yrs nv see each other liao leh. lolx. 19 of us went. and i saw like long-lost buddies like gary, lanetar, caspar, alex etc. lolx.... so like the guys were too shy to mix wif the girls so we started talking crap among ourselves, not forgetting isa's super cold jokes... like "i went to a chalet where i din play daidee at all" ... den gary and jinyong was like "SO?" ... hahaz. damn lame la. aniw lyn's mum still recognises me after 4 yrs? .... ok. but i really recognise her mum la! and my mum does too! so guys... dun say i fake de okay.. hahaz.
thanx to lanetar quek, we had this lame joke abt someone. wth. was damn lame nia. even had "movies" ... i was laughing like shiet la. her accomplices: tan zhenxiu and caspar lee. apparently yau chuen din get to understand the joke so he started ramming the cushions at me.. hahaz. then i dunno y. whenever i laugh. gary, isa, zhenxiu and the others will start ramming the pillows/ cushions at me. hmm. wad i learnt frm this gathering was like.... to position bears in the correct position next time. hmm =)
ok tt's all. well. abt some other stuff. there was this tsunami tt swept phuket island and other parts la. was damn disastrous. well... i felt sad abt it though. so, ppl pls pray for the tsunami victims, family regardless of ur religion (i quote this frm jm's sms/msn nick) .. yep. pray that all the missing people would be found back alive.
2nd thing. i'm still in tj. my appeal to vj din get through. so hopefully, i'll get there after 3 mths. gary wans to go there too (from mj). yea. and lyn's already in there le... aniw. weepin got 9 pts and he's going tpjc... hmm..... =S
i dunno how i shld feel now. happy or sad. haiz.
for the previous few days i have been fretting over this trivial matter.
pae result was out. i got into tjc. my 3rd choice.
not really excited about it though. juz tt i haf this very bad impression abt tjc. mebbe it was due to open house. i dono. i really really dono how to say how i feel. i'm not saying tjc's not good. but i really dun like the culture there.
sometimes. making decisions are really painful. and i guess i'm really really one who cant make up his decisions well. mum and sis were right about me. i'm known as "hua xin luo bo". and for this, i really really hate myself.
if i could, i hoped i would never wan to decide on anything.
i dunno la seriously. i'm in a blank. yes. i know i'm supposed to go appeal for vjc. which was apparently my 1st choice. yes. but i dun wanna be in band again. i know the feeling of it. and i haf my dreams and aims in jc. and joining band would wreck this long-constructed idea and theory of mine in my brain.
but i heard from a lot of people that general appeal is near 100% impossible. i dunno...
i'm in a state of self delusion. pls dun care about me.
aniw. juz wanna thank those who haf been wif me throughout tis period la. especially candy who even volunteered to help me out. yep. and also a lot of others. u all shld know la. i juz dun haf to mention ur names. but it's in my heart. a really heartfelt thanks to all of u.
so in the end. i juz gonna try my luck and appeal tomorrow. i so do hope everything turns out well.
well. will blog abt my work experience some other day la.
take care all.
with love ~ hq
that's what friends are for.
i love them.
=)
"It's My Life"
This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
Chorus:
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life
This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks
Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life
Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down
Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!
hmm. let's see. so i went for hc band tune-in todae. with bernard and samuel. ... ya, a record-breaking 16 ppl went todae. hahaz. as quoted by the conductor mr leng.
nothing much la. juz tt there was onli part of e ppl from nycb. and some of us frm tchs. rv. ya lor. =S but it was fun. it was mad as well. because.... i had Michelle and Charmaine in the same section >.<>.< (ok, no offence) cos she dyed her hair red i tink. wif her eyeshadows and outfit. =D ok. so gordon had 180 degrees change todae!~ okay i mean it. he's trimmed down alot le... realli realli. for bandies if u all don believe next time u got fate meet him in HC u will understand what i said. i heard frm john tt he went on some diet whereby no intake of carbohydrates at all. tt means no intake of rice. noodles and stuff. hmm....
on another note, i had somehow sorted out my schedule for the holidaes le. juz left out sm stuff like the chalets which i haven confirmed yet. and next wk i'm working! ok. with leonard and junfan. packing biscuits at singapore food industries. shan't reveal the pay la. but since we are working for onli 3 days. i guess it's alright though.. hmm...
hmm. actually wanted to talk abt some stuff. but i guess it's not realli appropriate to pen it down here. ya.
aniway. john was right. ppl do need to grow up.
