i dunno why i suddenly came back here to type my entry. i felt weird. especially listening to the mp3s on my computer now, courtesy of leonard. and alvin lin's blog.

after reading his blog, i dunno why but i felt sad. perhaps i felt sad for him. i dunno.

but his blog let me realised how much i missed huazhong.

honestly. i missed all my frens there. i missed the teachers there. i missed everyone else whom i know there. i missed the life there.

i have always been thinking whether not going back to hci is a good choice. while i dun regret it in some way, i regret it in another way too. sadly speaking. ya. my frens are all in hci. it's only with them when i have some kind of solace in them.

i miss huazhong. i miss huazhong.

syf 05. hcimb got a gold. i felt happy for them. but while during the syf i was reminded of the times where 2 years ago we were in preparation for syf. i remembered the dead boring night practices we had.

but i missed that now. if i had a chance to invent something. i guess i would invent the time machine. well. that happens becos i nv treasured my days in tchs.

argh. i hate myself.

on e other hand. vjc's not bad. i've been posted to 05s45. clarissa's class. i have made friends in the class. which is a good thing. but i doubt i'll ever find the happiness that i have experienced in tchs. mebbe it's becos tchs is a boy's school we talk anything under the sun.

i just cant let go of the past. that's y i always wanted to find excuses to go back HCI. be it visit the jnrs. trchrs. or wadeva. ya.

i hope things will turn out better.  ¶ 1:36 PM